Текст песни Cry Of Fear — Ending 4

I stopped myself from doing it, from committing suicide. But it didn't only leave me alive, it also left two police officers dead. I killed them, shot them both. This was not supposed to happen. Doctors testfied that I was having a psychosis, which means that my punishment won't be too hard for me to bear.
I have to spend the rest of my life on a mental hospital, where nurses and doctors are taking care of me. They let me finish my book, and it has helped me a lot. I wrote a happy ending, just for myself. I feel better now. I am more at peace with myself, even though I'm still stuck in this wheelchair, but I accept that now. I can never forgive myself for shooting those two officers though, but I have so many supportive people around me now, so I think I will be ok. Doctor Purnell is mentoring me and is watching my progress. I am lucky to have him. Sophie visits me every once in a while, when the doctors let her that is. They still think her visits are too *destabilizing* for me and that it hinders my progress. I keep on telling her how sorry I am for making her life miserable every time she's here. She then just laughs a bit and tells me to stop being so silly, but I can see the damage I've done to her in her eyes every time she looks at me. She found a new friend, one who is there for her and treats her right. I'm happy for her, though I'll miss the good moments we've had, knowing that they'll never come back.
I think this is a good time to close this book. It has changed my life forever.
The end.

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This song, titled «Cry Of Fear — Ending 4,» tells a story of personal struggle and redemption. The narrator shares their experience of battling suicidal thoughts and the unintended consequences that followed. They express remorse for taking the lives of two police officers during a psychotic episode. Despite the guilt, the narrator finds solace in the care provided by nurses and doctors at a mental hospital. Writing a book with a happy ending becomes a therapeutic outlet for them. Although confined to a wheelchair, they have come to accept their circumstances. The narrator acknowledges the impact their actions had on their loved ones, particularly a person named Sophie. While she visits occasionally, the doctors believe it may disrupt the narrator’s progress. The song concludes with the narrator reflecting on the transformative power of their book and the lasting impact it has had on their life.