Текст песни Cry of Fear — 4 Ending

I stopped myself from doing it, from committing suicide. But it didn't only leave me alive, it also left two police officers dead. I killed them, shot them both. This was not supposed to happen. Doctors testfied that I was having a psychosis, which means that my punishment won't be too hard for me to bear.
I have to spend the rest of my life on a mental hospital, where nurses and doctors are taking care of me. They let me finish my book, and it has helped me a lot. I wrote a happy ending, just for myself. I feel better now. I am more at peace with myself, even though I'm still stuck in this wheelchair, but I accept that now. I can never forgive myself for shooting those two officers though, but I have so many supportive people around me now, so I think I will be ok. Doctor Purnell is mentoring me and is watching my progress. I am lucky to have him. Sophie visits me every once in a while, when the doctors let her that is. They still think her visits are too "destabilizing" for me and that it hinders my progress. I keep on telling her how sorry I am for making her life miserable every time she's here. She then just laughs a bit and tells me to stop being so silly, but I can see the damage I've done to her in her eyes every time she looks at me. She found a new friend, one who is there for her and treats her right. I'm happy for her, though I'll miss the good moments we've had, knowing that they'll never come back.
I think this is a good time to close this book. It has changed my life forever.
The end.

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This song, titled «Cry of Fear — 4 Ending,» tells a story of personal struggle and redemption. The narrator shares their experience of battling suicidal thoughts and ultimately choosing to live. However, their decision comes at a cost, as they unintentionally take the lives of two police officers. The narrator is diagnosed with psychosis, leading to a less severe punishment. They spend the rest of their life in a mental hospital, where they receive care from nurses and doctors. Writing a book becomes a therapeutic outlet for them, allowing them to create a happy ending for themselves. Despite being confined to a wheelchair, they find acceptance and inner peace. The guilt of their actions remains, but they are surrounded by supportive people, including their mentor, Doctor Purnell, and occasional visits from Sophie. The narrator acknowledges the damage they have caused to Sophie’s life and sees her moving on with a new friend. They reflect on the impact the book has had on their life and decide to close this chapter, knowing that it has forever changed them.